paradoxal_kitty

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 21:02:34 GMT

not sure why i'm updating this so much. prob just because i need breaks from studying. feeling trapped in the apartment but scared to leave because so much more to study before finals hit me this afternoon and tomorrow.
and so much seems to be falling to me. the water got shut off yesterday and had many 'issues' today so i had to go talk to the manager and go back later cause they just did a shitty job fixin it. then i have to return tomorrow to sort out matters about rent and a bill we shouldn't have received. normally it's no prob, but today and tomorrow every second matters and it's stressing me out because i know how long talks can go on. if i don't study, take the finals, turn in my paper tomorrow by 4, and talk to the manager by 5 then i fail. GAH! i forgot sleep

Thu, 13 Dec 2007 04:29:54 GMT

countdown:
1 3 hour biochem final
1 3 hour cell physio final
1 3 page psy essay
i can finally taste the freedom of xmas vaca and sadly it has ruined any attempts at studying that i had. boo!

UPDATE:
paper is done!!! 2 finals left =)

Tue, 11 Dec 2007 18:07:18 GMT

finals week sucks!! and i haven't started finals yet. =( so much studying. bleh. oh well, at least josh is here to make me feel better as he plays video games in front of me. ok, so he isn't helping, but at least he's enjoying his week of being lazy while i study.
in other news, on sat i'm coming to sd. anyone need a ride down? wanna hang out sunday seth? lemme know. josh and i will be ready for fun.

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 19:56:34 GMT

smell the scent of freedom! for the first time i can see the end of college!!! i finally asked my professor about the course he's teaching next quarter...the last course i need to take to finish my degree (and biochem class of course *pouts*). he said that unlike the hell he put us through this quarter, his class called Biochemical Adaptations isn't going to require more from us than attending discussions, reading a few papers, and writing a final paper. HELLO? no midterms? no finals? a 'no pressure' science class? FINALLY!!!

i could float away in my enthusiam.

p.s. after further inquiry into sea otter organizations up north i found none that allowed for interactions with otters (unless i commit myself to a year at monterey bay aquarium or san fran). so, i'm gonna volunteer at the san jose zoo as an animal keeper aid. yay!

Mon, 03 Dec 2007 17:29:04 GMT

stresses gone. amazing how happy and relaxed my guy can make me feel. i'm no longer thinking about the future or of anything that may cause me to frown. =) it's nice to feel so refreshed for the long week ahead.

went to the zoo yesterday and fell in love with the otters <3 thinking of doing an internship this summer working with some organization where i could interact with them (since i'll be up north). i love zoos! i love otters!!

thanksgiving break

Tue, 27 Nov 2007 17:42:56 GMT

decided to do a not so quick update of thanksgiving break, complete with pics!!

in the first few hours we got to my grandparent's house in hoity toity rancho santa fe, josh and i decided to steal a paddle boat and explore the little lake by water. this ended with us getting curious what lay on the other side of a dark tunnel. so we angled our way into the narrow passage and found ourselves a surprise.

the tunnel was crawling with every sort of spider known to california. the entire tunnel was covered in thick webbing that contained thousands of spiders just inches above our head. and josh is arachnophobia. our boat hit the sides of the tunnel when it was least convenient (like when i noticed a violin spider at eye level with me). we finally got through the tunnel to find ourselves in a small lake where we recovered and prepared for the voyage back. on the way back i really began trying to figure out all the types of spiders. most i soon realized were black widows and as we went back through they decided they weren't happy about the intrusion and began to descend towards our boat. we paddled for our lives and returned just in time to see my sister waiting, laughing at our expressions and screams of horror. nice sister.

skip to next eventful occurrence:
thanksgiving dinner was exciting. got to see some of the family, got to enjoy awesome food, got to announce to the family that our wedding was set for 2009.

and immediately got in a fight with my mother when instead of congratulating me decided to inform me i'd never be financially independent and so i couldn't get married. poo on her. i chugged my 4th glass of champaigne and decided to tell my grandfather about my wedding plans. his response was "i really hope i'll be here in two years so i can see your wedding." i hugged him because really, what can you say to someone who's expecting death so soon (even though he's in fine health). and needless to say i didn't tell anyone else about our wedding plans so i didn't end up crying. i did however, drink more champaigne and this resulted in my falling into the dishwasher while trying to do dishes. yay for kitchen appliances that break falls. at least it wasn't the oven like it was a few years ago in i.v. so i guess i've made improvement.

next night we had a second thanksgiving and i got to talk girl talk with my cousins. lots of fun. lots of drinks. when the evening was over i think most of my family was partied out, but the cousins asked what we'd be doing the next night. i mentioned mexican takeout and opened a can of worms as the entire family and all the relatives decided it was a great idea. i woke up saturday morning hearing about how i'd invited everyone and so i had to throw the party. i however never remembered the invitation going out (yay alcohol). we threw a fiesta that turned out fantastic. the guy who took our order for takeout though wanted to kill me as i told him 14 individual orders, all with special requirements. yikes! good margaritas and lots of fun before we went out to see The Producers the musical which i found very entertaining as did most of the younger generation there (my grandma's mouth hung open at every luid joke that was made, making it that much better).

i got to play with my puppies and kitty every day down there, which makes me very very happy. i got to see my grandparents and realized just how lucky we were when i saw the fire torched their backyard but saved their house. i got to see my mom and dad before they journey down to mexico. i got to relax to the point of forgetting we had to come back to school. =( so sunday was quite a disappointment for me to learn that it was time to come back to biochem and work stuffs. bleh.

hope everyone had an awesome break. we need to have more of those. laters.

Sun, 18 Nov 2007 15:31:52 GMT

k about to go paintballing. very nervous. i was jumping up and down in excitement thinking of how fun it would be to shoot people when josh reminded me that i get shot at too. so after shopping around for padded clothing, i'm praying i don't get shot (how padded are jeans really?) it should be a lot of fun today (so long as I don't die). if i get too beat up with paintballs then i'll get to go to thanksgiving looking like i was in a huge fist fight or something. that will look excellent in the family pictures this year. hehe. can't wait.
then tonight we're having the pre-thanksgiving party. can't wait for that either! so much food. it's gonna be awesome. we stayed up till 1 cooking so now we can spend the day getting shot at. yay!

Thu, 15 Nov 2007 08:47:26 GMT

had another biochem midterm. another feeling of utter defeat as i left the class. however, it made me feel better to see students clustered around the professor stating his test was unfair. it made it hurt less to hear one student tell me that the sunshine made the disappointment affect him less. i guess i'm saying i feel better i'm not alone. but, the class has killed my spirit. or at least caused my spirit to leave the life of academics for something more rewarding elsewhere, and i think my mind may follow it. (too bad i have another test friday)

in better news, my class this winter may be cancelled if more people don't sign up for it (first pass got 3 students signed up for it). which means...that i'm once again in jeopardy of not getting my major. but this time it's not concern i'm feeling as much as amusement.

let's see...more excitement. i've decided to take to my list of things to do before i die and add to it. =) can't wait to see what fun adventures i should do next. let that consume my mind and time for a while instead of catalytic equations that will do little to serve me in the future since i don't intend to become a biochemist synthesizing proteins. hiss.

in better news, i've come to realize this is probably gonna be the last sad post you see from me for a while. from here on out i'm enjoying the rest of my quarter since most of the tough busy work is out of the way. YAY!!! screw finals!

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 19:17:54 GMT

update: waiting...ugh. by 2 i'll know. just waiting for the class to begin so i can get it over with...
(p.s. already beginning to feel a little silly for having this one class effect me so)

Wed, 24 Oct 2007 17:48:57 GMT

feeling...odd. well at least acting odd. it's like my mind has malfunctioned.

today i find out if i failed the biochem midterm. i am scared sh*tless because this determines if I continue the class, if I take the other classes next quarter, if I get a double major or just graduate with one major, if I decide to go to med school (this is a required class for most), ect. very stressful.

so, feeling very anxious and nervous, i put my morning to good use and got all glammered up. I figure if I'm gonna have to admit defeat with biochem I will at least do it looking good (told you i'd flipped). or, if I did pass and decide to keep the class, this will be my victory and I will look great with a huge smile plastered on my face. (yep definitely lost it). i even took pics of me before i go and find out my fate. figure i'm smiling in these being optomistic. hopefully i'll be smiling when i come home and the pics won't be important, but if not i'll prob be devastated for a while and this will be the last smiles i'll have for the next few days.

dramatic much? very!!! don't know why i'm feeling so dramatic. prob from the "crappy show series" (quote from rach) i've been letting consume my life yesterday because I don't want to think about my fate. bleh. i hope to erase the entire series from my computer today coming back successful, but if not I have 20 more episodes to go =)

Mon, 22 Oct 2007 21:52:13 GMT

yay for a weekend of fun that has left me completely swamped this week in homework. oh well, it was totally worth it after the nasty biochem midterm (still don't know how i did). i'll show you what we were up to when i'm not racing to another yawner of a class.

Sat, 20 Oct 2007 01:03:11 GMT

death by biochem!!! i never thought it possible but after i studied for 11 hours i feel...satisfied that i tried my hardest on the test. gah i hate school.

Wed, 17 Oct 2007 16:18:55 GMT

I must have the WORST luck in the whole wide world!

Fri, 12 Oct 2007 17:21:35 GMT

I'm bored of classes. They no longer interest me, so I'm finding interesting things to do elsewhere. Currently I'm in the process of writing an independent research proposal for a grant. Sounded interesting and time consuming, which is what I'm looking for. I've also been promoted to manager of the research group I work for, so I should have more tasks to keep me distracted. Besides that I'm doing Big Brothers Big Sisters again and looking for fun dog sitting/running jobs around the area because I love the running jobs I have now. =) I'm still in the process of contacting every breeder I know to find out when they're having their next litters. Exciting. Burnout is hard to cope with, but the best treatment they say is to find new exciting things to do. I just hope I won't drop out of school and become a kiteboarding instructor in Baja or something because it would certainly be new and exciting as well.

Thu, 11 Oct 2007 18:17:23 GMT

so i know the kind of puppy i'm going to get. it's the best in the whole wide world (besides my puppies at home that is). Toy American Eskimos rock!

http://youtube.com/watch?v=pL82hS3pP8s

=) god i can't wait till spring to get one. i'm so excited!!!

Wed, 10 Oct 2007 14:01:10 GMT

So close to graduating, but also so close to just leaving. I just feel like the senioritus is getting the best of me right now and I really am not caring. Perhaps I have burned myself out.

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 17:48:49 GMT

Finals=DOOM!

Fri, 20 Jul 2007 20:33:59 GMT

Ok so the last week or so I have waited to see what will become of Frenchy. She has been very quiet recently and I didn't know why. Then yesterday I received my answer in Discussion. First off, I would like to point out the fact that I learned she really is a feminist (yay for calling that one). We spent a greater portion of the class tearing apart a play using later works by feminists. We finally had to point out that everything she's said was really a far stretch and she receded and says she was only doing guesswork, not stating what the author intended. (Come on, how would a woman who wrote The Mad Woman in the Attic have influenced a man living 2,000 yrs before her time?). Then, ladies and gentleman, I get her to confess...
She's in trouble! She graded the last batch of essays and has had her privileges of grading revoked. This round the professor will be watching her like a hawk and teaching her how to grade. This is a huge victory for me and I could tell she was upset. visibly upset. i'm stoked. aid off.

Wed, 11 Jul 2007 22:17:35 GMT

grrr. couldn't go to war with Frenchy today. She's hiding. Feeny (nicknamed from boy meets world) tells me that i have to be nice because she's sensitive to criticism. i grumble a response. i don't like rolling over and playing dead. i don't like kissing up. and there's no way i intend to do so to some egotistical French prick who can't speak English properly.

Thu, 05 Jul 2007 08:53:44 GMT

today was an awesome 4th. lots of fun trying to wakeboard behind a sailboat. forgot how good salt water felt, smelled, and...well, not tasted. but anyway. andrew and alex are a good team. very amusing on a sailboat. i remembered only too late why i don't sail anymore. it's not that i don't love the sea. it's not that i don't love the feeling of flying over the ocean like a dolphin skimming the waves. it's the cold.
i've gotten hypothermia once. it wasn't fun. especially since i got it from being in a swimming pool. :S Granted it was an outdoor swimming pool in spring when snow and ice still cover the ground (and I swear the pool as well), but it wasn't fun to be the only kid in swim class who had to wear a wetsuit after that.
so today was no different. i guess i haven't gained enough body fat. oddly when i'm wakeboarding or waterskiing i'm moving enough or staying dry enough not to have my body temp fall (most of the time). however, get me on a sailboat with the spray hitting me and the wind gusting past me and it's all over. boo. i guess this means i won't be joining the sailing team.
however maybe this year i'll be part of the wakeboarding team. ;)

Sun, 01 Jul 2007 18:24:38 GMT

Sooo close to being moved in...so close. Lots of boxes. Lots of stuff we collect over the years that should go out with the boxes but we can't bring ourselves to dispose of. The apartment is obtaining a feeling of warmth and comfort. It's nice. School isn't.

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 05:22:32 GMT

what i hate more than anything is someone violating. today i learned that our landlord broke our contract by entering our house without permission or any notice. of course, what she found was a disaster zone and immediately began screaming. wtf? how can she be pissed when she violated the contract and our trust? i'm totally frustrated because i'm 500 miles away and unable to do anything. grrrrr!

Wed, 23 May 2007 00:06:37 GMT

When I originally posted my screenname for AIM I was listening to one of my fav songs so decided to use part of the lyrics. little did I know that that little line would sounds so "webcam girl"ish. =)
o0callmeangel0o
Nor did I know that my entire class would become aware of this.

Tue, 01 May 2007 03:22:54 GMT

So this weekend I've had sooo much fun. rach, josh, and i went to see kittens on friday night in hopes of getting one. then saturday we went out to see fracture (very good movie). sunday morning i was awakened to a pug racing around the living room. the puppy has been staying with us for the past few days as the owners' house is being sprayed for rats or something. it's been so much fun getting to play with the puppy. we went to the fair yesterday and conquered all the rides. sheep, goats, bunnies, pigs, cows. sooo many animals. i love animals so much <3

Impulsive Major Decisions

Thu, 19 Apr 2007 21:47:02 GMT

Amazing. Life changes in a matter of seconds for me and it's never expected. Always sudden. Maybe I'm a bit impulsive...hehe. So I talked to my intimate relationships psychology professor and decided to start up a research project with her. Then, this week I decided to make psychology as my second major. Suddenly my life will be filled with psychology classes which I love and adore. I decided to be a research assistant this quarter for my professor and today met with most of the graduate students I'll be working with this summer. =) It's all so much fun, but now I have a lot more work ahead. There's already talk of having me compete for a research award next year. Yay for having a 4.0 in my major.